Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Why Can't Sex And The City be like real life.
Why can't I have a group of girlfriends surrounding me with positive enforcement? Why can't I have the flow of advice on how to get over him? Damnit someone should write a book, How To Get Over Him? But I probablly wouldn't read it any way. I feel so stuck. I really want to maintain this friendship, but why? He doesn't want to be friends. He has already moved on to someone else. He says he's just friends with her but everything he does and says shows me otherwise. Then at the end of the worst day ever. He calls me out of the blue to go for a drive. Which I do then he says he should probably check on his cat, which is at my apartment, so we go and the next thing I know were getting it on and I wake up the next morning with him in my bed. No regrets on my part. I love him, and I enjoy being with him. Then he texts me and says he needs to come get his cat. It's his cat she belongs with him. But I can't help wondering if this is because him wanting to see her is what led to everything else. Is this the final attempt to cut me out of his life? I just want to cry. And it hurts because it's not just some guy I'm losing, it's my friend who has been in my life day in and day out for two years. My friend who I have slept with and cried to and laughed with for so long. I have such a hard time saying goodbye. And he is so right with being angry with me. And I am right being angry with him. The difference is he gave up. And I can't fix that.
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