Tragedy

I went to class today and found out one of my classmates was killed in a car wreck. I sat in my car and cried for hrs, and of course who came to my rescue, who sat with me and didn't judge me for what I said to him. I have so many emotions going through my head, and it hurts that someone I loved so much is gone, and now I have lost a friend. And a relationship that could have worked is over because neither of us could ever agree on anything, so he moved on and in the midst of it all we lost a friendship that we had. A good friendship. In the midst of it all Love killed what we had, and he wants to move on instead of going forward, and I feel like I lost three kids and the man that I loved. I feel like my family was taken out from underneath me and all I can do is bitch and complain and call him names and blame him for every little thing he did wrong. And it's all out of anger and pain and not being able to understand, Life sucks. My class mate was driving to our morning class, we always passed eachother on the way to class, when I could make it to class. She is the first person that talked to me and that I really related to, and made me feel like I wasn't completely out of place, and all of my prayers go out to her family that I know she loved so much.