Train Shake it up

Loving the muppets!

My Favorite Halloween Movie... Aahh Memories!

I don't know why I even bother. Why I bother trying to make this a nice place to live. Why I try to make a stable environment for your children. And I say yours because you have made it very clear that they are not and nor do you want them to be mine. I try and try to give you the things you want and it's not good enough. Nothing is good enough for you. You act like you are completely numb to the world. Your response to my existence is robotic at most and I find myself wanting to beg for your attention. Only I'm not that desperate. So where does this leave us? Where does this leave me. Do I go on a shadow of your existence, letting your anger towards me build up. Letting you explode at me, because for once I can't keep it together. I don't know the answers to these questions, but something tells me I better find out quickly.

“The 'not-giving-a-fuck' meter is as far into the red-zone as ever before.” Lars Ulrich

Came Across A Delightful Poem......

“Last night I had a revelation
Somehow I have to make you pay
It's all about manipulation
And what it takes to get my way
I don't believe in soft solutions
No one makes a fool of me
Without receiving retribution
No one hurts me and goes free

I'll play on your fears, I'll leave you in tears
You'll never be the same, my friend
You're walking a line, it's a matter of time
You'll never rest easy again

I've got the power to bring you down

I've heard it said, to err is human
It's forgiveness that's divine
I thought about forgiving you, but
I want revenge, I want what's mine
I think it's time to settle scores now
It's time to set the record straight
You'll know it's coming, you won't know how
Or when, you'll have to watch and wait

I'll play on your fears, I'll leave you in tears
You'll never be the same, my friend
You're walking a line, it's a matter of time
You'll never rest easy again

I've got the power to bring you down

You know, it feels intoxicating
To be intimidating
It's invigorating
To see you shaking

I've got the power to bring you down

You know something, you see it coming,
You know I will stop at nothing.”

Red Delicious quote

The Female Condom

http://www.ringonit.org/index.php Click for a demonstration.

My question is. Is it fail proof against 4 inch acrylic nails?

I Don't Think I'll Ever Manage To Keep Up With This Thing.

I try and try to keep up with my blog. But it seems life just slips away from me, and the next thing I know it's been two days, or a week, or a few months. The unfortunate part is when I'm not blogging is usually when the things I should be blogging about are happening. The loss of a loved one, the search for a new job. The hopes of a new life. When I do sit down and am prepared to bare it all, I choke up and nothing I have to say is translated through my keyboard quite the way I would like for it to be. I'll keep at it. One day something interesting will come of it all. One day.

I think she's gotten a little ahead of herself.

I think she's gotten a little ahead of herself.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjSG6z_13-Q

Quote of the month!

"I'm 31 years old
That ain't the end but it sure ain't where I began"

I did not manage to post one single thing during the month of April. I am such a slacker. Got a blackberry, love it! Totally addicted. So excited it's my birthday month I figure by the end of the month, I may be in my thirties, but my boyfriend will still be in his twenties and that makes me awesome!

I am sick. I have been sick for a week and a half. I feel like crap and have been watching Friends and playing Farm Frenzy. That's my update.

Spring portrait of the kids from yesterday, I am so pleased with the results. Had them done by Sondra Dietz of Leben Photography

I am so frustrated.

I have been so frustrated over the last three days, I feel like my blood pressure is through the roof. I'm frustrated and I don't know how to get out my frustrations or how to process my thoughts to make the right decision to make me less frustrated. And I have managed to loose two of my favorite necklaces which I am sure are packed downstairs somewhere. I just wanted to have Rebecca wear one today and now she can't. Well it's off to another lovely day at work.

I've been a bad girl

So I'm addicted to Weeds, which has kept me from playing WOW and writing on my blog. Bad Show it deserves a spanking for being so evil. Anyway took some new pics of the kids and have them posted everywhere including on the side of the blog. My deviant art site has reached over 4000 hits which is Amazing! And I love everyone who checks out my stuff. Still haven't really written anything worth reading. Maybe one day you never know. But for now it is back to Weeds.... That silly Nancy, always getting herself into trouble.

Completely Addicted.

So yesterday I was ill and stayed home all day watching Season 1 of Weeds. I have to say, Kelly was right. I am absolutely addicted. Now Dustin says it's stupid which would be fine if he didn't stayed glued to my screen through episodes 8, 9, and 10. Starting Season 2. I'm sure I will have more to say, but so far I am loving it! Absolutely loving it!

It's Tuesday

It's Tuesday and I am so exhausted. Feel like I didn't sleep at all last night, kept waking up every two hours. My coffee doesn't even taste good this morning, and I feel bad because I was being a major bitch to Dustin last night. It wasn't intentional I was just on the defense because I felt like I was being attacked, which I wasn't. It's all part of getting to know a new person. Looking forward to the weekend. I need some me time. I don't feel like my last two days off were productive and refreshing. I guess that is life though. Nothing to interesting to write about, just trying to keep up the blog.

It's Monday

It's Monday, not much to say. Another day at Best Buy, I'm grateful to have a job but sometimes just sometimes, I wish it was a little more interesting. I wear the same stupid outfit everyday and deal with the same mundane questions morning after morning. Can't wait till this weekend, I have the baby shower and I get to see Theresa, and it's pay day so that is always nice. 20 minutes and I need to be out the door. And on a side note I love Dustin's lips. Kisses from him in the morning are my absolute favorite. I love being in love.

Very very tired.

I don't want to go to work, it is too early. I have to finish my coffee and find my pants. The cat is meowing at me and I can hear Dustin's computer going ROAR!!!! Typical morning in our lovely house. Wish I could just stay home and cuddle with Dustin all afternoon, after all he rocks my socks off. Nothing interesting on facebook. No good celebrity news. Should burn the across the Universe CD and listen to it in the car, I could go for some Beatles this morning. I also don't think being on my period is motivating me to do anything this morning. 20 minutes and I need to hit the door, at least my breaks are fixed and I can stopped being paranoid about people staring at me in traffic when I try to stop....

New Art

The Castel Steps by ~strangerswithkandi on deviantART

The Gits

I had never heard of the band The Gits, until today. I came across a documentary on Netflix about the band and their lead singer Mia Zapata. The music is amazing, although followed by such a tragic story. By the end of the movie I was in tears. If you have a chance check it out, it's definitely worth it.

I Love It!

Jersey Shore

I've never seen Jersey Shore. I never plan on watching it. So please oh please stop subjecting me to it. Let me enjoy my celebrity gossip in peace, I beg of you.

Context

Context

Wrinkle Cream, Whiney Cats, and Sleepless Nights.

My cat is driving me insane with the constant howling and meowing and purring. I finally had to lock her in the basement last night, (don't worry it's fully finished with a couch and the whole nine yards.) I am so exhausted I feel like I was up all night, but I was really out cold, and I went to bed at like 6:00 am so now I am up and drinking down coffee trying to perk myself up. It's another long day at Best Buy and I am not looking forward to it at all. And I've taken to using wrinkle cream in which my boyfriend responded by saying, " you're only 30." I know I am only 30 but the wrinkles are there, I can feel them. I hope the cream works to destroy them. Loving the blog thing again, if only I can remember to keep updating it. I've missed blogger but now my wordpress blog will be lonely without me. Ta Ta for now.

Hilarious

Google

I feel the need to vent.

I am having one of those mornings. I had planned on sleeping in a bit, getting up cleaning the house a bit, having some coffee, then going off to work. This did not happen. I stayed in bed hidden under the covers to avoid world war 3 which was going on in my living room between my boyfriend and his ex via cell phone. While he ran around like a chicken with his head cut off getting this kids ready to go. I actually should have gotten up and helped him, I guess I was being a bit of a bitch myself. But the whole point of going in late to work was to de stress myself a bit. Point is people need to take responsibility for themselves and for those people their responsible for, plain and simple. Don't push it off on someone else. This happens all too often around here, and it gets to be extremely frustrating.

This is so Gross.

My cat went into heat before I could get her fixed, and in an attempt to find a way to calm her down a bit I googled solutions. This is what I found. This is so gross and I would never in a million years attempt this on any animal.

Equipment:

• 1 cat in heat
• 1 Q-tip

Procedure:

• Grab wailing, squirming cat and place it on your lap with its hind quarters readily accessible. Chances are the cat will freely offer them, if not the first time this procedure is followed, then certainly each time afterward.
• Insert the Q-tip into the cat's vagina. It will be exposed and puffy. Do not insert the Q-tip into the other orifice. Either way the cat will begin to scream, but there is a subtle and audible difference in the scream of satisfaction and the scream of rectal pain. Experiment a little until you can distinguish the two.
• Move the Q-tip in and out of the cat's vagina slowly at first, then more rapidly. No need to be gentle, no matter what you do with the Q-tip it beats a barbed cat penis digging around in there.
• You are finished when the cat is finished. You will know when the cat is finished because it will either begin immediately to have a cat orgasm, or it will run away with the Q-tip sticking out of its ass. If this happens let it enjoy itself for a few minutes before attempting to retrieve your Q-tip.
• That is it, you are done. Enjoy the peace and quiet until the cat flares up again.
  
  What to look for: The cat orgasm that follows this procedure is something the likes of which I have never seen elsewhere. It is a wriggling, leaping, moaning dance of ecstasy that defies any experience of pleasure my mind can even begin to grasp. If humans had orgasms with the intensity of a cat serviced in this way there would be no such thing as war, hunger, capitalism or God.
  
  Background: A cat in heat is, with few exceptions, one of the most irritating things to have living in your home. A cat in heat will follow you around and howl at you in a bone chilling, hideous wail until you are ready just to toss it outside and let it get pounded by the local tom's. After a few days of this torture having to drown a few kittens sounds relaxing. This cat-saving technique was first demonstrated to me by a terminally un-squeemish roomate of years past.

So exhausted. I don't know if I can make it through another week. Today was rough, but everyone was in a pleasant mood so it made working nice. Which is something I have not said about work in a very long time. Going to enjoy my brew then watch public enemy's with my lovely man. I'm hoping it's good.

I am making an effort.

I am making an effort to post more, maybe come up with something interesting for people to read. But for now I have to go to work. So I will continue my efforts later.