UGH I CAN'T SLEEP!

My mouth is hurting so bad, and I can't stop crying. And I'm just so fucking angry. I don't know why this had to happen. Why can't I just meet someone who really cares about me. Someone who really wants things to work and doesn't come up with a millin excuses as to why it wont. Who doesn't place me on the bottom of some list. And then constantly treat me like I'm unimportant, and then yell when I feel unimportant. I really loved him. I really did. And I know that he thinks that I didn't and I know that he thinks I was just buying time, but I wasn't I really did care for him. And I wanted thinks to work between us. I wanted to find a solution for all of the problems we were having. But it just seemed that everytime we would solve an issue he would come back at me with another issue even if it was unresolved from months and months ago. And I know that I would bring things of from the past too. But I try really hard not to hold those things against people. I just hate this feeling of being thrown away and today of all days. When I really needed a friend, and really needed someone to be there. I get a major slap in the face and a reminder that I am completely alone here, and that I have no one within reaching distance. And I really need to go to sleep and I have my first day of work where I'm working by myself on friday. And I just didn't need this this week. I really needed support. And I know that my friends are calling and they care and I really appreciate it guys. It would have been nice to have something to look forward to this week, or to know there was someone I could go to if I needed to.