New Job.

So I'm kind of freaking out about my new job. Tomorrow I have a 10 hr shift and it's my first time working alone. I'm not in a state of mind to be starting a new job, and I can't stop crying. And I can't afford to keep crying tomorrow. Why do all the bad things in my life have to keep piling up on themselves. I feel like I'm this horrible person thats done some so terrible wrong that they have to be continuely punished. I've always tried to be a good person. I just don't know when I will catch a break. I just wish I wasn't so all alone.