Tired..

So I've been feeling really up and down lately, plus I'm been changing my mind every five minutes which I am sure is great for those around me. I am trying to stay positive and stay supportive. Stay aware, and cautious but not ask too many questions. I have been rather worried about my ex. I know he is going through a really hard time, and I know that when he dumped me and I felt like my whole life was falling apart, I really needed someone there giving me words of encouragement, and I did have lots of friends calling and lending support, and it helps, and I have never believed in leaving a friend in a time of need. I do worry that he questions my intentions, which I don't blame him at all. People in a situation like ours have lots of questions that fly threw their heads. And like I've said, of course I wish he hadn't broken up with me. But he did what he thought was best, and I think we both needed a break, I just wish it hadn't been so sudden, and he hadn't moved on so quickly. But if she makes him smile and she makes him happy, then I don't want to take that away from him. I just want to make sure he has someone there to support him, because I know how though things can get. Anyways. I think my med change has been screwing with me, I'm going to try taking them in the morning instead of at night, to see if i sleep better if it will help bring down the anxiety. if not then I might have to switch to the other meds the doctor gave me. I really hate "trying" different types of med and trying to feel them out. I like what works. Problem is at $100.00 a month, I can't afford what works.