Thank You for the Unsolicitated Advise.

OK thanks you too Nimwads for giving me advice even after I asked you not too. I am feeling so much better now, I was seriously trying to vent and just get it out of my head so I can think straight. It's hard getting wrapped up in other peoples lives, and thats what happens when you have friends. I am procrastinating at the moment. I have a drawing I need to get done, and I realy hate drawing class, well I don't realy hate the class as much as feel awkward in the class, because when I am trying to draw I feel like I completely slip into my own shell and everything around me is disruptive and annoying. Not to mention today it was hot as fuck and I seriously felt like I was going to pass out, and I get annoyed when what I see is completely different then what other people see, yet I'm expected to draw the exact same thing. And then the teacher says your drawing looks very chaotic. Yeah no shit Im feeling very chaotic in fact I'm feeling a bit homicidal, it's hot, I'm sweating, I'm tired, and I can't think straight because my mind is blanking out. But that is life I suppose, now I am sitting in my apt which desperately needs to be cleaned. It was definetly a long weekend, I did manage to get my dress from the briday shop and thanks to Roger's mom will be having it altered so my ladies don't make and appearance during the ceremony. My panick attack thank god did not last past my last post, but I am still thinking through the whole situation. And no it's not just the other person, it's me and how I treat the other person, and how I treat the situation. It's not fair to him and more than it's fair to me. But we talked and were moving forward and hopefully things will improve. But I must get back to my homework soo woo hoo.