I'm not dead I swear!

So this week has been kind of icky. I started training on my new project and to say the least it realy sucked. For the most part because of the young obnoxiously loud boys in the class. At first I thought I was just being bitchy but then I realized it was not all of them it was just a select few. I was irritated because I can't make extra bonus money until I'm back on the floor which wont be for three weeks at least and these guys were totally fucking off and keeping us all from learning what we were suppose to be learning. It was like a wave of bad energy everytime I walked in the room. Then I got stuck doing a group project with 8 people who thought it would be productive if we all worked together instead of breaking down the project into smaller groups. So we ended up finishing a half hr after everyone else and our project sucked. Maybe I'm putting too much into this but it's my job and I'm going to be there for a long time and I would like it to be enjoyable. So then a friend of mine lost their keys and their vehicle has been parked at my house for over a week now, which I don't realy care about but all week it was a scavenger hunt to find these keys. Then we get into a fight. Go figure. And of course now it's a situation of who breaks down and talks to who first but I think this time we have both reached the point of not wanting to give in. Part of me knows that if I suck it up and make the first move that we will just end up right back in this situation because we always do, and part of me just wants to get over this and move on because this weekend it's not just about him and it hurts but then again, if this realy is the end then it's has to be only about him. I can't hang onto someone else for other reasons, and besides the other reasons probablly wont notice I'm not in the picture so as long as there not affected it's fine. OK none of that made any sense to anybody sorry, apparently I'm famous for that. I have been writing and now I have to find all the random stuff I've written on so I can post it on the other site. So if youre interested in my crappy poetry keep your eye out. Anyways it will be a quiet weekend. I'm going to clean a bit and then who knows what else, so this blog may get more than one post out of me this weekend.