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So I started to update this morning, but couldn't think of anything interesting to write down. But apparently sitting at Burger King has jogged my brain. I guess I'm just weird like that. So grandma is doing fine and she is in a nursing home until she is 100% better, but I have faith she will be home soon. It's very strange how in times of stress you find yourself searching for comfort or for a companion. I think it's the feeling completely hopeless or helpless and need the comfort of knowing there is someone else there to lean on. I have been single for longer than I can remember, and Im not counting the few occaisonal moments where a relationship has been touched upon. But for the last few days I have been feeling that companionship is not such a bad thing to want. And I don't want the white dress and wedding wring. the 2.5 children, I don't want a leash around my neck or a tattoo that says taken written across my forehead. But I want someone to who cares about me, and I want someone I can care about back. I want that feeling when you look at that person and think you are a complete jack ass but I love you anyways and they look at you and think you are one moody bitch but I think I'll keep you. Schools starting soon and the seasons will be changing again, and I just think that it's time for a change. Now I'm not saying I'm proactively stalking people on a hit list, but I'm opening my eyes and for once allowing the possiblity to be there. And maybe this is just me talking out of my ass but as my father so nicely reminded me the other day it has been 3 years since my husband went away, and I'm not getting any younger, and life is so much more fun when your sharing it with a friend or a lover, and sometimes the nights are easier when you have that person you can look at while you hanging upside down on the bed and say hey I think I need ice cream, and they look at you in your monkey pajamas or boxer and tank top and think I have truely attached myself to the weirdest person on the planet. I need fun, I need love, and I think I have earned them. So hears to hoping!