Floating

I feel like I'm just floating along. There was a position in the company I worked for in Scottsdale , AZ and at first I was like hmm interesting. And then I sort of did a double take and thought well I did go to school to work on computers, I could at least apply and see what happens, and then I thought Scottsdale, you are insane. There is no way your moving to Scottsdale. So then I just dropped the idea, until yesterday when I was talking to my supervisor who asked if I had thought anymore about applying, and I told him I didn't know if it was realy worth moving all the way to AZ and he informed me that the job payed $18.00 and I was like holy shit. But then when you take in the cost of living in Scottsdale which is just ridiculous, the amount of money it would cost me to move which would only be partially reimbursed by the company. It just doesn't seem worth it. But the idea of doing it and going somewhere exciting if even for a moment, actually made me smile.

So this morning I get to continue living my boring life. I have to go to the clinic and get a measle shot for the third time Im just like Jesus people come one. Otherwise I dont know . I'm not really unhappy at the moment, but I don't realy find myself jumping for joy. I feel myself constanty reaching out for people in my life only to find there not there or they don't care, or they just don't feel the same way. People who at times becomes utterly so self involved they forget I'm standing there. But again I think at times we all become a little self involved, I guess anyways. I wish I lived closer to some of my other friends, so we could go out and have a girls night. Oh well, for now I must run.