I wonder if I'll make it.

I just got done taking a test and a quiz and responding to my discussion questions in Theater class. I have to get up in 5 hrs so that I can work a 12 hr shift, and I still have so much to do. I wish I could do some of this stuff at work only I can't. We have been so busy and I am so sick of my job. I don't feel like I am using my brain at all, and I didn't even realize it until I started hitting the books, like actually studying, I honestly feel like I have not had one real thought in months. As though my brain is programmed to think one way and any sort of abstract thinking has been turned off. Part of me so wants to look for a job somewhere else where I can be creative and be a free thinker but that dreams is not realistic and will not pay my bills, but oh if it would. I also need to seriously find an apartment, although I don't want to leave this one, and it holds so many good memories, and not so good memories, but it feels like home and I hate to leave it. Anyways I should go to bed, my kitty is passed out next to me and I am sure she would rather sleep on my bed then this uncomfortable couch, I am sure I will write more later.