Tomorrow I am going home for the first time in four years, and to say the least my anxiety level is nearing freak out. I know that this disorder is completely mind over matter. But it always amazes me the amount of strength it takes to over come these episodes. I am so excited about seeing my brother and sister in law and all of my friends, and I refuse to let this disorder debilitate me. I have come so far in the last three years and I know that I am strong enough to over come anything that I face. I guess I write this as more of a reassurance to myself. To allow myself to get out all of these worries and fears. To know that I will be gone for a short period of time, and I'll be safe and this weekend is going to be so super exciting. I've already packed my suitcase and I am ready to go. And on Friday when it's 570 outside. I will be nice and warm.
I suppose life has just been a bit stressful lately. Moving, school starting, work, going to this reunion, so on and so forth. I am excited that it will soon be October my most favorite holiday of the entire year, and today I bought new shampoo that smells like spiced Pumpkin. I could eat the entire bottle!
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