Today has been one of those days.

This morning I woke up and it was bad, I got into a fight with my man, and it was ugly. The usually yelling and snapping back and forth. All because we were tired and had just woken up. Then I had to go to work and I have come to hate my job, realy realy hate my job. And I don't want to hate my job. I want to be able to go into work and enjoy my job. To sit and gossip with my coworkers and be thankful that I have a good paying job with nice benefits. And the thing is I can't figure out why I hate my job, I have been there a year. I didn't use to hate my job. And it makes me feel selfish that I hate a job when there are so many people who don't have good jobs. I can't wait until this weekend. I want to see my mom so bad and my grandma and my step dad, and I want to watch the muppets and act like a kid all because I can. It's the joy of Christmas. Plus by the time I got off work tonight, I hadn't eaten, or taken my medication, I felt like throwing up, my head was light, and all I wanted to do was cry because the day was so shitty. And now I am eating potatoe chips and pizza which is so not healthy, but it tastes so good.... Anyways I'm sure I will write more later, and I think tonight I will definetly be venting to my diary, because somethings just don't need to be spread all over the internet.