Pondering

What is it about us as humans that allows us to have complete disregard for each other and for ourselves. Why do we do things knowing that it is disrespectful to someone else. That our actions could cause someone else pain. And these are not things we can apologize for. We can not go back and say oh I am sorry I did not mean to do this, or to hurt. To do that would be a lie because we do these things, fully aware of the consequences, fully aware of our actions, and yet we don't care. I know that I personally feel better about myself when I do things that don't harm people. When I can walk through life with a clean conscience. And I stray like all humans do. I do things and then I look back and think wow that was a really shitty thing I did. Or I could have handled myself differently. I think part of growing up is learning how to become a better person. It is making mistakes and learning and somehow redeeming yourself for the actions you have taken. I don't strive to be perfect. I don't think anyone is perfect, but I want to be a good person, and to do good things for myself and for the people around me.